The Writer’s Corner features poetry, essays, short stories, satire and various fiction and non-fiction from SCAD Atlanta students. To submit your own work for the Writer’s Corner, email features@scadconnector.com.
“I Hate How Happy I Am When You Talk to Me Again” by Jeanie Lo
I hate you
I hate you for everything you’ve done to me
the screaming
the yelling
the humiliation
the insults
I have all the reason to rage
all the reason to resent you
all the reason to move on and have a good life
prove to you that you haven’t left a
giant
black
hole in my heart
The hole in my heart
The hole in my heart that I forget when I see you
My heart that melts when you talked to me again
The damn, soft heart that flutters to you
My heart that tells me to forgive you
and to understand that you
were in a bad place as we fell apart
that you are an insecure boy who needs love
My heart that doesn’t listen to my
brain that tells me that you are an unprincipled,
power driven,
overly ambitious
asshole that just has a
fragile self worth that I want to help make stronger
and that you are a special person who is able to
make me feel sick when I didn’t get your text
make me curl up on my bed being overly excited by your “hello”
I can’t concentrate
I can’t stop thinking about you
What have you reduced me to?
I miss you so, damn, much
I missed you for five years
five damn years
I miss you
I miss you
I still do.
