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The Writer’s Corner features poetry, essays, short stories, satire and various fiction and non-fiction from SCAD Atlanta students. To submit your own work for the Writer’s Corner, email features@scadconnector.com.

The Unsaid by Leila Scott

 

It Was Only Lust

I remember the first time I gave it all

Thought we were in love

But as I watched you hover over me

Your eyes became dark

It was like you had finally bought that toy

the one you had been begging for

but I sat on your shelf

Waiting for you to decide when

for when was it my turn

for you to play with me

As if I was just one ragdoll

in your abundant collection

every time you picked me

I thought we were in love

every time you wanted to play

I thought we were in love

I had one of those strings you could pull

And when you’d tug it

I’d repeat words and phrases

pretending to enjoy our playdates

But I wish you had never bought me in the first place

 

What is Yours is Not Mine

You gave me chills

Maybe it was the thrill that what I wanted couldn’t be mine

It was only a matter of time

That you’d begin to lie

I knew you couldn’t fall in love with me

Our dance would never be in sync

That we’d waltz right into our biggest enemy

That you would take all of me and you’d never give it back

And my love, you never did

You have all of me

Every version of me

You were my greatest symphony

I will search for you in every song I write

I will search for you in all the days sunlight

I still remember the nights

When you still held me tight

I’d trace our steps we laid across the floor

but that won’t happen anymore

Because I was fool

To think this rhyme would ever make you fall in love me

 

The Journey Around a Broken Heart

I never asked for the world

simply a glimmer of hope

that love was still written in the stars

and that we weren’t at the end of our rope

You let stars light up even the darkest parts of me

but I am who I am and not like the other girl you want me to be

I just wanted a taste of what everyone else swallowed

I would never be prepared for the feeling that followed

You left before I could and took everything that was good

I knew you could hurt me just not that you would

You’ll be the underlining thought

of every book of every plot

My heart still misses you

I still miss you

and I still look to the sky

thinking about what used to be mine

Wishing on all my lucky stars

because the moon is too far

to be the only thing we ever share again

I can’t say I still know you because a trip around the sun

is just too long of a run to still say that you’re the one

Those three hundred and sixty-five days are too long to say that you haven’t changed

but I still know your heart and that still remains

even if the light in your eyes has already begun to fade

 

A Daydreamers Nightmare

I was fed empty words

So much I could choke

On all the lies you wanted me to swallow

I believed promises that are now lost

Travelling down the road you left me on

Trying to find me

Maybe they would apologize

Maybe then I’d be free

I stripped for a lover

Who didn’t have it together

I undressed my heart

Naked, for the whole world to see my scars

You were my world

Don’t you see

But I wasn’t the one who satisfied all your needs

With your fingers in my mouth

and me saying please, don’t leave

I never believed

That you’d leave me down on my knees

Praying that you would come back for me

Tell me this is just a dream

 

Pretty Woman

I have fallen into a sea

These numbers like waves, they drown me

I have a bitter taste that comes from the hate

That a skinny waist is a goal I should make

To be a pretty woman, a pretty woman

It’s a heavy burden I cannot bare alone

Wash me up to shore I cannot swim on my own

My reflection in the water it taunts me

Flashing images of who I used to be

Curves engulf new places, let me be free

My failure to wiggle into a pair of jeans

These buttons unlatch releasing my self-esteem into a society that fed me articles that made me want to be 95 pounds by the age of thirteen

Pretty woman, souls of fire the ideals of this world trying to put us out but continue to ignite

Pretty woman, givers of life I know you are growing tired but do not become silent we have our rights

 

Let Me Have This Dance

I’ve waited too long for someone to sweep me off my feet

If this night is over by twelve

I know I may dwell

In what could have been

If I could let my heart stay a little longer

If I could grow up and be a little bit stronger

Maybe then I wouldn’t fear

Fear you, love, the light that might change my life

But I am scared and unprepared

I know that you and me

nothing could compare

I am not any other girl

If I can, I will change your world

Give me this once chance and let’s dance

Cue our song let’s dance all night long

let the music sound the floor

You could be my everything and more

If you don’t bore

of my wild heart and sensitivity that runs to my core

 

You Would Not Know, You Are Not Me

I said drink me up

Taste my pain

It’s the only way

You’ll know what it’s like to be hurt by you

You did not hear the lies

Soak in your dulcet words

Drown in your love

You don’t know what it is like to be loved by you

Once you decided to walk away I decided that

I would never be so selfish to ask you to stay

Because even though I need you I understand that you don’t need me

Even if it means that you must leave

I would never be so selfish to ask you to stay

Because you cannot convince someone that you are what’s best for them

And I cannot make you see how you changed me

And my love, can’t you see what your love has done to me?

When you swallow, do I taste bitter?

When those words reach your ear, do they bleed?

When you wade in the water, can you float?

 

I Cannot Watch You Leave

If I love you

Do I have to let you go?

But you make it so hard to let you go

My love

Can you see?

This broken heart

The way it bleeds

You’re the only one I need

I cannot be free